ARTICLES:
Eurasian Experience
Journeys
In and Out of FOB Land
In
Lisa Mueller's high school, the term "FOB" (Fresh Off
the Boat) is used to describe everything from music to clothes.
While she participates in this light-hearted self-mockery with her
Asian peers, she can't help wondering if she, with her European
ancestry, is Asian "enough" to join the joke.
By
Lisa Mueller
March
2003
The
ethno-social scene at my high school seems to have spawned a nouvelle
"FOB" culture. In an environment where most of my friends
are Chinese, the term "FOB" (used as a noun or adjective
meaning Fresh Off the Boat) has come to describe nearly everything;
from FOB food to FOB music, to FOB clothing. Ironically, not one
of my Chinese friends can accurately be classified as a "FOB."
The only one who actually was born abroad moved from Taiwan as an
infant. So, am I really any less "FOB" because I am Eurasian?
The
adoption of this originally deprecating label as a mainstream vernacular
trend has confused me. Is it all right for Asians to call themselves
FOBs, just as blacks sometimes refer to themselves in derogatory
terms? Being surrounded by so many Chinese peers, I often find myself
speaking their "language." But while participating in
this self-mockery, am I also being racist? Does my white half exclude
me from access into FOB Land?
Occasionally
I am reminded of my dual identity, so to speak. My Chinese mother,
who is an ABC (American-Born Chinese), is apparently "whitewashed"
(absorbed into white American culture). True, she does not speak
with a Chinese accent and discipline me like the stereotypical FOB
parent. But does this make her any less Chinese? In reality, my
European father is more of a FOB than my mother, as he was born
in Germany and actually did take a boat to the United States.
But
of course, the richness of my European ancestry is of little importance
when it comes to defining my cultural identity. When filling out
job applications I am routinely asked to select "only one"
ethnicity with which I most closely identify. In a fit of exasperation,
I either check two boxes or choose something entirely different,
such as "Latino," in protest. My frustration is compounded
by the so-called "white" category. This vast group usually
includes all Europeans and even Middle Easterners, while there are
nearly always separate boxes for Chinese, Japanese, Filipino, Laotian,
Thai, Korean, and all other Asian varieties. Never mind that there
are similarly many countries in Europe as there are in Asia. In
a society where ethnic is "in," it is increasingly easier
to label someone as "just white."
Therefore,
I have become pressured to bring out the FOB in me. Being a FOB
no longer implies immigrant status. Rather, the label has become
associated with riced-out cars and tapioca tea. The "FOB culture"
itself is nothing to be criticized. Rather, it is the label that
implies something exclusive and perhaps even discriminatory to those
who do not entirely fit in. To be a FOB is simply to be "Asian
enough."
In
biology class one day (a class roughly 90% Asian), I found myself
drawing a punnet square to examine the genetic makeup resulting
from a number of ethnic combinations for my future children. I began
thinking about whom I would have to marry for my kids to turn out
Asian enough. Suddenly I realized the extent to which this FOB culture
had influenced me. Why should I, or my future children for that
matter, be slapped somewhere on the ethnic spectrum?
After
a few weeks studying genetics, I became known by my classmates as
"The Hybrid." I didn't mind it so much, since playing
the ethnic game was, and still remains, an integral part of social
interaction at my high school.
Since
then, however, I have stopped worrying about whether I am "FOB"
or "whitewashed." I plan on majoring in French Civilizations
and International Relations, two fields which require me to travel
abroad and acquaint myself with cultures that are different from
either of my own.
The
road to FOB Land is artificial. My journeys in and out of this false
world have shown me that cultural enrichment has very little to
do with my hybridness. I should not be struggling to define an ethnicity
I can call my own, nor should I try to fit into cultures that are
pre-defined. Instead, my enrichment should come from studying the
customs of others. If I am able to achieve this type of open appreciation,
then whether or not I am a "FOB" is inconsequential.
About
the Author
Lisa Mueller is a high school senior in Northern California. She
was born in Minnesota, a white wonderland in terms of its snow and
its people. But for most of her life she has been raised in California,
where natural light and ethnic diversity are much more common. She
has long had closer ties with her Chinese relatives than with her
German family, although German roots remain evident in her appearance,
her last name, and her eternal obsession with playing JS Bach on
the harpsichord. Looking back, she can recall many instances in
her childhood when she shunned her European heritage and tried to
be more Asian in order to fit in with her friends. Now, however,
she thinks being Eurasian is great. Her status as a "hybrid"
offers her the ultimate bicultural vantage point from which to regard
life.
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